By MICK HOLIEN
I have long had a problem with anger.
And in my younger days, it was the root cause of a lot of problems.
And while I gave some thought about seeking anger management shortly after I got out of the military, I just never did and all these years later sometimes I am a ticking time bomb.
There are very few people who have seen my anger on display and it sure isn’t anything I’m proud of.
More than anything I think I display my anger toward myself especially since my health has faded somewhat.
Of course I share this with you more than anything but for catharsis.
I think maybe we all can be pushed to where we get mad but in my view that is far from the anger tht manifests itself physically.
And when I was a far bigger man – of 100 more pounds not that long ago – I was probably dangerous although I have always been a bear in a china closet.
It is strange that events that happened so many decades ago rein at times bright and clear.
I think when I was attacked in the shower in boot camp I was too busy defending myself to get out of control mad instead opting to ward off a man who was intent on for lack of a better word sticking me.
I have just a couple of defensive wounds to show for it and the realization that I am more than observant when the time and place require it.
During that same time period after a college party in Bremerton I not only delivered some serious injuries to a couple of Marines but also slugged a cop after he grabbed me from behind to pull me off.
In a strange leap of faith he fell backward, catching his hand on the tailgate of a truck, causing enough injury to his shooting hand that he was medically retired and I went to the slam.
Charged with a felony I was fortunate and the charge was expunged after a 30-day sentence and a year of behaving.
Don’t ask me why today was the day to share this with you unless maybe it is because I have been under the weather and grouchy but even madder at myself.
Symptoms at another time but I swear eventually I will run short of maladies.
Just sayi
